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The Quiet Weight of Caring
By Ilene Carol
Caring for my mother was the hardest and most beautiful gift of my life.
In this personal essay, I reflect on the quiet work of caregiving, the emotional toll of balancing roles, and the legacy of love we leave behind.
In the last four years of my mother’s life, I found myself inhabiting roles I never fully anticipated—daughter, caregiver, executor—and somehow, still, Publisher of Women’s Quarterly. My days stretched thin, balancing the demands of caregiving with the responsibilities of business. Personal time was scarce. Sleep, even scarcer. And yet, I held on.
Because in my heart, there was no question:
Who should face life’s final chapter alone?
No one.
But what I’ve learned is this—caregivers often walk that chapter in silence.
Their pain, their pressure, their emotional labor—largely invisible. Often misunderstood. Too rarely acknowledged.
This November 3rd would have been my mother’s 89th birthday. And this December 3rd will mark one year since her passing. But I haven’t fully grieved her—not yet. The weight of probate, estate matters, and a mountain of unfinished affairs has kept me in a holding pattern. What many envision as a sacred, quiet season of mourning has, for me, been replaced by signatures, deadlines, and long to-do lists.
And still—if given the chance, I would still do it all over again.
Because she was my mother.
Because caring for her was an act of love.
And because in doing so, I honored a bond far too sacred to abandon.
During this time, I wasn’t just a caregiver and a publisher—I was also mentoring college students across the U.S. as they navigated uncertainty during the height of the pandemic. I held space for them, guided others through crisis, and quietly carried one of the biggest emotional transitions of my own life.
💛 What Caregiving Has Taught Me:
- The emotional toll of balancing work, life, and care is real
- Society places silent expectations on women to carry these roles without pause
- Grief doesn’t wait until your calendar clears—and it rarely follows a neat process
- Legacy isn’t just what we leave behind but how we love while we’re here
To anyone who has a friend, sibling, or loved one who is a caregiver, please check-in. Send a text. Offer a listening ear. Better yet, give them a few hours of rest. Even the smallest gesture can be restorative—a reminder that they are not invisible.
As a culture, we must do better.
At some point, we will all walk through loss, aging, and care. And in those moments, we’ll remember who reached back for us when we couldn’t carry it all alone.
We all deserve compassion.
We all deserve to be seen.
And the quietest weight becomes lighter when love is shared.
